Welcome Back

Well here I am again. It's been years literally. My last post dating back to 2011. So I thought I would come back and start blogging again in hopes that I can be more accountable for myself. I am really worried as I continue to grow older because it seems that as the years keep going by... I keep breaking my promises to myself. I would like to start with some of my accomplishments to just wrap up what I have been doing since my last post.


So in 2012 I made a couple of accomplishments. My original starting weight was 210 pounds, which I was really not happy about. That was the heaviest I have ever been in my life and hope that I will not return to that body ever again. Today I sit anywhere between 165-150. I understand that is a large weight difference but as water weight fluctuates and so does my motivation that is my basic average weight. In July of 2012 I did get to gogo dance for WTF!3 which was pretty cool and I even auditioned and got a spot on Sinrgy GoGo's. Though I did not manage to lose enough weight to stay on the team at least for now. I also managed to get in a severe car accident in November which really placed a damper on my weight loss goals. So, short and sweet that was all of last year wrapped up that I really care to speak about.


As for what I have come to talk about today is my goals. I keep telling myself that I'm going to lose weight and I never manage to do it. I keep letting myself down and I really need to hold myself accountable for my health. I worry that as I continue to grow older that if I don't lose weight I will face serious health conditions. Which I do have some serious health conditions that run in the family. I also feel that I have wasted my whole young life being a fat slob. I am now 22 and have made little progress on becoming healthier. All I want to do is be able to wear cute clothes from the junior department before I get too old to wear that kind of stuff and wear mom clothes lol. I want to be able to dance and be proud of my body instead of looking in the mirror and feeling like I am damaged due to my weight and scars. So today I have made a change and I hope to maintain a healthy lifestyle and develop a habit in the long run.


If you would like to add me on myfitnesspal to see my progress you can add me with the following username:


voguextc


Anyway here is to becoming a new me and not giving up... As Thomas Edison said:


“Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

I'm not giving up this time...