Okay so I came here to do a normal ramble like I usually do, but today I'm honestly not feeling it. When I write it usually comes to me very quickly and I get this done in about 2-5 minutes. Today for some reason this is a process, so I think I'm going to make a quick update and keep it at that.

So I wrote last on August 15 explaining how I'm sick of being lazy and shit. Yeah it's been about 11 days... so not really 2 weeks yet, and I'm already having issues. Though I have got through those issues unlike I have done before. For me this is huge, because when I fall down, I have a tenancy to not get back up. I like to lay on the ground and wallow in my pain. Though right now that's not going to work, it hasn't worked and that's why I'm proud of myself for just moving forward with my life and not letting this get to me as bad.

I started working out that last Monday, and I will admit I haven't worked out for 30 minutes or more. I have actually been pushing myself and doing a lot more resistance training with my cardio then all the other times. Now why I started to do this was after watching a video from YouTube star Jenna Marbles. She was ranting on about how people look at her funny at the gym and what not. I'll post a link so you can just watch it yourself if you haven't seen it already:

Anyway got me thinking about the last 4 years and all my attempts of trying to become healthier and obviously skinnier, and toned. I figured well I've done all these things on no resistance... why don't I try to crank my resistance up and see how well that will go. So the past two weeks I've been running a little bit. Broke to my goal of running a quarter mile, which for me is kinda big because I have never been a distance runner. When I did run I was well known for speed and 500 meter dashes. So distance running is really difficult for me because I feel like maybe I try to push myself too much on the speed aspect. Then I also have been doing the elliptical, but instead of just going off of no resistance I've been pushing myself to 6-10 resistance. I have never worked my ass off so hard in just 12 minutes I burned 101 calories!

So in two weeks I have lost 6 pounds which is awesome. I know that not every two weeks I'll lose 6 pounds, sometimes it may be just 1 or 2. Sometimes I might not lose anything, but I know if I keep pushing and keep going I'm bound to do this and be successful. According to a weight loss calculator I should be 125 pounds by February 17, 2012. So just seeing how this is so close to my birthday makes me even more motivated. I honestly feel like this could be the best gift I could give to myself and I know I can do this!