Fading Away

Oh wow well so much for every couple of weeks, and as you can imagine my awesome workout plan has now shattered to pieces. Though I will explain why this has come to be in a later paragraph. I'd like to talk a little about some things that have occupied my mind of recent. Basically all my feelings wrapped up in a little present and given to those of you who read this. In the past almost 2 years that I have been writing this blog, I have gone off on several aspects on my life. Some completely pointless, others about things that are important. Today I would like to go over something important. I don't do this opening up thing very often, but I will attempt it today.

So starting off I've been having some really odd dreams for the past 2 weeks. For me I typically have nightmares every single night. For some reason though I'm just having really odd dreams. I really do not want to go off on a tangent with specifics, but the main character tends to be someone I'm familiar with and eats at me like cancer. That's really all I can say about this dream, I don't remember much from my dreams,but I remember simple details... Like trying to beat my ex-step-mother with jean shorts. Odd details like that, that keep me thinking all day.

Though lately because of all these weird things happening in my life, I feel so drained. I just don't quite understand why I feel this way. There are some days I just feel so drained I'm literally unable to move. So this is why I haven' t been loyal on my exercise. I could eat the breakfast of champions or drink energy drinks all day. Either way I feel like a sack of potatoes. Maybe it's because I'm depressed again, who knows... Time will tell right?

Well I just wanted to put a couple things out there. I didn't want it to be super long or anything. Well hopefully when I can stop feeling like a sloth, maybe I'll go to the gym :D

VogueXTC