Hello Internet, and your in for a treat today. Just kidding! Did I get you hopes up? I hope not. So as we all know I start off my blog with something random and off subject, but at the same time ties into shit? I don't know your defiantly asking the wrong person here. Anyway, out of all days I realized that I am really lonely. This is kinda how I felt back in January. I was like fuck this shit! I'm going to go do something with my life! Let me tell you that is never a good idea. I do shit with my life and I am back to square one. Well more like negative square six, but hey who would even know about that except me. I mean I'm the Queen of horrible things gone wrong in this motherfucker! Anyone who knows me well enough can tell you. That nothing literally goes right in my life EVER! Anyway enough with my pointless ranting. I mean "I have one of those blogs that no one reads" right? lol That's what someone said today...
So I'm going to let you guess what I did this morning. What's that? Why yes I went to school, but I got my hair colored again. It really needed it desperately. So why not, though I did have everyone around me telling me to shave my head bald on one side and I'm like: No thanks. lol I was really trying to grow it out, but as Vanessa has said. I pulled a Britney Spears... I did cut all my hair off cause I was really depressed and had no idea what was going on. Guess what internet: it was all a misunderstanding! What did I tell you, I called it.
After school I kinda chilled at home for a bit. I really needed to touch up the blue in my hair. What really bothers me is when everyone says my blue is green. They are all like: Hey I really like your green streak. Is it real? I get offended by this as to my hair is BLUE! Get it straight people, learn your colors or just simply stop being so color blind all the time.
I eventually left the house to adventure with Vanessa. I picked her up at work and just decided to go to Greenhouse Coffee. We ordered Emma's with muffins. Let me tell you it was amazing! I'm sure some people are super jealous. You all know who you are. Then we met up with Marcus, Dana, and Tony at Apollo Burger. This is the first time I have seen Tony since we went to Greenhouse and what not. Which brings up another subject soon to be talked about below.
We eventually went back to Dana's where she took pictures of herself in cosplay. We all just kinda chilled, nothing ever really exciting. Though I did get to pull Tony aside and talk to him for a bit. As I said above: Everything turned out to be a whole misunderstanding. I guess he never did block me on MSN, and really wasn't ignoring me. Wow I feel like a douche for getting all upset for nothing. lol I truly thought I lost a friend and he was pulling a Griffin on me. Thumbs up for over reacting! Not really. To everyone that witnessed that over reaction. I'm sorry. lol I'll learn to keep my pants on this time. Anyway one thing that did bother me was the fact that my grandma has once again invaded my privacy and called Tony. I really do not appreciate her doing this, because she does this so often. It just upsets me that she has to do this. She complains that I do not talk to her, but yet she doesn't talk to me. How can I talk to someone that goes through my things and invades my privacy. I don't know I'm just saying...
I eventually took Vanessa back to her car and met up with Dana, because Marcus was too busy having a bromance with Tony. I'm utterly jealous of this bromance they have. I told Marcus though that our love will be stronger and I will win his love by buying him more. lol He's still convinced that our bromance doesn't exist cause I have boobies. Screw the boobs! Our love is real! lol I am really just kidding, but honestly Marcus if you are reading this... I am truly jealous.
When Marcus got back with Tony I ran outside to see Marcus and keep him from going inside. Which was lame that he still got in. So while waiting for him to come back out I stood around with Tony and watched him freehand. He's amazing at it. One day I will be that good... I don't know another thing I'm utterly jealous about. It's odd though I've been having a lot of flashbacks, especially around Tony. I'm guessing it had a lot to do with maybe how he sent me through a bad trip or something. I cannot really explain it, though I can say I do not like flashing back. It makes all these stupid memories and shit black me out. There are times I'll be driving and it's almost like I'm back in that memory. Like I black out literally for a couple seconds and all I see is that memory. Not the road, which is kinda important. Though Marcus finally came out and joined in with his stringing. Then Dana came out took some pictures and what not while I wrote a poem. Which I will post below. Though I can honestly say I have never felt so lonely in life until tonight. I have a lot to think about because I'm dumb as Marcus would say... Then laugh... Who's laughing now bitch! Just kidding.
I came home a bit early today which is okay. I really do not mind in fact I'm thinking about playing some video games when I am done doing this. I bought Final Fantasy XIII and haven't even really played it. I mean Devan has played more than I have and he doesn't even own a playstation, which is really sad.
Anyway, I had a pretty good day. I'll see how my night goes, hopefully I can get to sleep. Who knows though. Thanks for reading! Also tell me what you think about this poem posted below.
VogueXTC
Tainted Souls
Cover your eyes young one,
the darkness is too bright.
Now sleep my young one,
as I carry you to the light.
Awaken your body,
shut down your soul.
Awaken your eyes,
go to sleep as a whole.
I shield you from destruction,
for the world is not full of bliss.
It's not as innocent as you think,
and when it's gone it's you I miss.
So child close your eyes,
forget about your tainted past.
Darling please shade your eyes,
Because nothing ever lasts.
Also before I forget. Tony bit me and it really hurt... Here is the proof to his assault on me... He did say sorry, kiss it better, then give me a hug... so I guess it's okay.
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